Poetry, in motion

Recently the Lord has been surfacing issues in my life, probably because it’s about time I deal with them.

Honestly, I’m not exactly motivated to serve army. But the sands of time is flowing and wala, it’s only 71 days to my seeing my best pal, the pink IC. Come what may, I’m a warrior! and this time round I know for sure, that if my God is with me, then who can be against me? Ippt and range? I’d ace it! =D

$$ issue - I’d spare you guys the finer, more intricate details, but yes Lord, I know you are jehovah jireh! I’d let you settle everything. I can just sit back, relax and wait upon you.

My parents - Dear Jesus, you see my heart like no one sees it. I really want to honor them. Please help me, to improve our relationship and to glorify yourself through this.

I thank God, for surfacing all these issues before I begin serving in BB. My boys will indefinitely be influenced by me. If I don’t live a right life, I have no authority in speaking into theirs. However, I don’t feel pressured or worried, cause the yoke of the Lord is light!

Amen and Amen and Amen!

I’ve learned today, that when I pray, you always hear it and will answer it.

In your own way, in your own time.

Like when I prayed for the rain to stop, you sent me a friend with an umbrella, so I can spend that short journey with him and talk, and still get to camp safe and dry.

& when you show me that nothing is impossible with you. When man say its impossible, you say, I’M-possible. I truly believe that with all my heart.

That your promises to me will come to pass, and you have my best interests at heart.

You are a personal God. You tickle my funny bone and make me feel like a child again, and lead me in triumphant victories in life.

I thank you for holding your wrath back from me, even though I am absolutely undeserving of it. I grumble and complain, I’m lazy, incompetent, hesitant and just no good at all.

But with you inside of me, I can radiate with goodness and joy, and am changed completely because of you!

Continue to mold me inside out and make me someone you’d be proud of.

If I could, If I would, I’d go wherever you will go.

I’m living a life of adventure now. Everything seems so intangible. Like I’m sticking my head in the clouds. While I cant be in control of my life, I feel light, and free of burdens.

Isn’t our God good? Im serving more than I ever did, and yet I feel more energized and excited, instead of burning out.

When you give more, God fills you with more of Him.

Let me be an empty vessel, content with my lot and eager to please you oh Lord.

As for that certain someone, I am thankful for you being in my life. You taught me to love with a bigger heart and inspired me to live daily with God as my internal processor. Much love =)

Dear daddy God, if you would, please let me dance for the upcoming Daddy’s day performance. I want to dedicate the whole dance to you, cause you have been the best, the greatest dad. EVER! 

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” - Romans 5:3-5 The camp has opened up my eyes to the superficial pursuits that I yearn after, to just seek pleasure, fame, glory and comfort. God’s heart is for the lost, for them to be back to his embrace. This is above and beyond religion, and emotions. God let us experience love and salvation, so that we’d spread this good news and not let it be kept within church walls. Let me not be anxious, but submit everything in peition through prayers. I am convicted that this 40 days of faith is really for God to show me signs and wonders. It’s really for me. Like a father’s lavish love for me.

University applications status unknown, the most hopeful one is dash, cause SAF doesn’t allow disruption if the degree conferred is not by a local university.

& you seem far away.. Perhaps your thoughts are preoccupied with work. I understand that.

Only God truly knows how I feel now and the turmoil that is going through my life.

He says, “Be still and know I am GOD, even in the most turbulent of storms.”

I have given my all, and I’m still holding the fort. Save me, when it crumbles.

The hour before dawn is the darkest. Show me O Lord, the glory of dawn.

Wars to be fought, a beauty to be pursued and a character as pure as the skies to be forged.

These requests I lift unto the Lord, knowing He shall be my shelter and refuge. My shield and my sword.